someone call the doctor got a case of a love bipolar

I used to think you were such a catch. How could I, a girl like me, find and keep a guy who was so successful, so grown up, so attractive? I was so happy to have you by my side. I felt like I could learn so much from you about life.

what I learned was that all of those great things mean nothing if you are emotionally incapable of any kind of love. If your heart is closed off to the world how can you expect to ever be happy. You say that you only know how to depend on yourself because you could never depend on anyone. Yet here I am just waiting for you to lean on.

One day, when you are really alone, I hope you think of me and realize that I would have loved you forever, been there for you and held you when you cried. And because of your stubburnness you have lost me forever. I hope that one day...you can lean on someone, even if it isn't me.

Oh the twists and turns of life.

Well, I'm beginning to get even more convinced as time goes on that Steve isn't the one for me. But the question is why am I holding on?

And the answer to that is...his actions and his words are polar opposite. One day he can tell me he doesn't have any feelings for me and less than a week later he is holding me in his arms and looking at me like he needs me.

I read in my horoscope today that I should be with someone who loves me as much as I love them.

But I love Steve...And I want things to work with us I don't want to leave him but I can't wait forever...we are on a break...but it isn't technically a break because we are still seeing each other and not seeing other people...but I don't want to waste a whole summer waiting for something that will never truly be mine.