So it's sunday.
Can't say that i've achieved much this weekend. However, I'm going driving today. Maybe I will finally get my license..I really need it, it's getting pathetic.
I had a date last night. It was a bust. I was so tired and bored and I really didn't want to be. I iniated this date, thought I was taking a chance but it was a bad idea and I can see that now. I think i'll just be on my own for a while.
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Friday, November 7, 2008
The other day, someone I admire told me I was very reflective. One would think that someone so reflective would have peace of mind, would know who they were or where they were going or why they were here. Not I. Like that new Brad Pitt movie coming out..."The Curious Case of Benjamin Button," I feel as though I am getting younger with age. If that makes any sense to you. I used to be so sure of myself, I knew what I wanted, who I wanted and what I wanted to do with my life. I feel as though the more I think I know, the more I realize I know so much less. It's so frustrating. Do you ever have moments when you just want to let all of your inner impulses get the best of you? Where you just want to run wild and tear all of your hair out and scream. That's what I want right now. To let go of everything for just two minutes it would be amazing.
I'm not present. I'm not present in everything I do. I am one of those girls that the professors complain about. I come to class with my laptop and my closed ears. My eyes drop and I find myself captured by some spec on the wall for an unmentionable amount of time. And homework? What homework, i'm too busy staring at my screen or playing on facebook for hours upon end. This morning I watched a movie to escape my computer for two hours. I have every intention of coming on here and writing my paper but somehow I end up on facebook or msn.
Today, while I was on facebook I saw a notification from this girl Laura in my acting class about her blog. Well I read it and it made me really nostalgic. Nostalgic for my best friend who is away and nostalgic for my writing for myself. I figure the best way to figure myself out is to write about it. Clearly jumbling it all up in my mind hasn't been helping at all. This will not be a waste of time, on the contrary it will be life-saving...I hope.
Life is short.
Alyx.
I'm not present. I'm not present in everything I do. I am one of those girls that the professors complain about. I come to class with my laptop and my closed ears. My eyes drop and I find myself captured by some spec on the wall for an unmentionable amount of time. And homework? What homework, i'm too busy staring at my screen or playing on facebook for hours upon end. This morning I watched a movie to escape my computer for two hours. I have every intention of coming on here and writing my paper but somehow I end up on facebook or msn.
Today, while I was on facebook I saw a notification from this girl Laura in my acting class about her blog. Well I read it and it made me really nostalgic. Nostalgic for my best friend who is away and nostalgic for my writing for myself. I figure the best way to figure myself out is to write about it. Clearly jumbling it all up in my mind hasn't been helping at all. This will not be a waste of time, on the contrary it will be life-saving...I hope.
Life is short.
Alyx.
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