Monday, January 5, 2009

of all the girls throwing rocks at your window i'll be the one standing there even when it's cold.

Nothing lasts.

it's true.

Why is life so not what you expected. Why can't I be the girl who demands you kiss her feet and then runs away to join the circus. Why am I the one who waits? I am always the one who waits always. Why is it when I look in your eyes, you seem to say all the things that never come out of your mouth.

I feel like someone pressed the pause button on my life and it stuck. I can't unpress it. I am a child and yet, not a child. You have stocks and your own place. I have my room without the lock and the cell phone buzzing when are you coming home my dear.

everything is so jumbled. One minute I think I am wanted, and the next I have no idea. Why is it that at 16 I was more sure of myself than I am at 21. Who knows. So many whys, too many whys for one girl that's for sure.

does this make any sense to you?

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